The month of 'friend' is coming soon..

this month many worse matter happaned for example, my assignment always not improve still in a same standard,all my classmate improving their skill and knowledge day by day, but for me i still not done good enough. I felt not comfortable when i face infront of my mother because before that i promised my mum said i will not disapointed for her. When my mum came from the work i feel sorry for her, what can i do now? My direction not clear at all, my exam for this semester 4 is start from 1st of september. Moreover my internship also start in the same date. Haiz...difficult can get a good result in the examination. I haven prepare enough to take this examination, i lost my confident and direction during normal class.

In the same time i feel i also lost contact with my secondary school fren and my relationship between old fren and new fren at a diminishing. The second matter problem face to me right now is my BF. He also not good at all in this year and the last year. THis year he have trouble of his car accident, money, relationship between him and parent and family member. I wan try to calme down him but i not able to help hime solve the problem. SO i feel very apologize for him. Sorry dear made u more trouble on ur 'head' and ur Mind.

As i know the rate of death in the past year on this month also happened some terrible thing. Ofcourse i dunno wheather is some kind of thing made it or just we extra feeling? we are dunno.

My fren BEE WANN birthday on 23/8/2010, how can i celebrate with her? i dunno, that day is 14/7/2010 so i scare. Maybe i done A bad thing for others so the feeling always worse...sometime they celebrate with others also no invite me in the time i really feel not happy and more lonely than normal day. is me attitude problem or not gain the heart of fren that why i will feel alone when i stay in the house during a specific time for celebrate some time. Maybe is true my attitude problem become the fren avoid from me. i wan leave from here, i really cannot stay without any excited life. I still remember the last year no people with my fren remember my birth...who are invite me to watc movie is it just because the timing problem. Without any wish and present from my fren it is mean i lost my fren and my life start become dark..

Dear i really miss u ,but when i meet u i will arguing with u, i'm not qualification become ur girl fren and i also no suitable for u. Even i have a certificate but i dunno become a right human. Alternative btw right and wrong infront of me i still dunno how to choose...Is me think a lot or i just get stuborn a while? today u write something in the wall make me feel i not enough take care for u. Can i leave u without inform u? can i just make a selfish decision? hurt someone i also not feel better than u, the brave to hurt someone is difficult, hurt ur beloved is more hurt then u...i willing do anything u want, but i also have a greater protection surrounding me. I cannot reach the goal i set before, i give up!

consideration day....

Some time i ask myself why i will live in here..for what? who?
Have people said live for life, live for learn somthing, live for waiting die...and so on!

In different people think differently opinion or idea..that why a lot of people can built the different cultural and perception in their own personality...today i learn the principle of marketing in the class, but today not learn theory of Marketing but she try give some test for us which is Market Itself. My class start discuss what is Market Itself in real mean..unfortunely nobody know...that just a simple game it is identified what kind by myself...we start the "game".

The funny thing i know is some of my classmate draw the same item or object...such as like Rebeka, she draw a turtle and the other guy also draw the similar object...haha

My one is a "lalat" and becaome a ...secret..hehe
this item i take time to think is the suitable component for me...because the meaning in what i'm drawing in reflect my whole life. The personality of myself not really sure but the first view in my mind is that once...it can reflect me as a lazy girl and always relies on my parent what i should to right now is contribut something when i growth up.

The truth is I hate study, because i want attract my parent and others i'm starting harworking study and satified by my parent...what i like is normal life...i dun want my parent earn money for me I wan try indepandent...so i believe in one day i will go foreign country work and study for my family...hope can contribut for them...

This is my backside story, about the paper....

Finally the class is over and we leave.

May 13

Today is the lonely day...

I think today i have some activity in this night bacause of someone can't go so the activity delay and cancel...have a good opportunity give me buy and book the ticket but i also not willing go it.
Who can give me advise what should i do now? The man have ability to change my life but the main decision is by my own...money and love! how to choose...if a person who are really think deeply, this question is quit difficult.May be is my own personality is complicated.

Everytime when i feel not comfortable i will headached..i'm get fever...

My first holiday (monday)

Yesterday is mother day. Many people have celebrate with mothers and present it for her..anyway i want wish here all the mother have a nice day at that mothers day.

After the happy moment i would like to share my holiday session plan...
my fren just finish the holiday but now is turn from me get rest in this two week.
The planned set from him is go genting 3 day 2 night. Today I start felt not normal such like missing the heart from here, i try to have bacjk but still fall in trouble. Nobody can open my mind. Sadly, Hopeless, Worry nothing, etc.

However i told someone but still can;t express the real feeling. I scared..and helpless, this the first day holiday i dun want keep going with this feeling..

END OF Chinese Ney Year & Valetine day

Gong Xi Fa Cai

this word all of pupil will speak to wish each and other have a good well in the whole year...
So..today i need shared my story about this New Year event with all of my fren.

What happened in the new yaer? haha...the happy thing is can get ang pao from elder people. The others is...can celebrate valetine day with beloved. Guess..the present is ? just is the simple and increadible thing, which is flowers with the chocolate. it have 27 of flowers with chocolate! Dun think just 27 flowers no meaning, we can think properly tht is a deemed meaning compare with jewerelly and money...tht is
1 3 1 4 mean. First of all, i'll make solution how get the 1 3 1 4 mean. 1+1=2 and 3+4= 7

Izit so sweet...hehe
i wish here all of my fren have a happy chinese new year and amazing valetine day at2010....Lovee U all and all the best@.@

Feeling of yesterday

Yesterday i went back office for continous my uncomplete work. That day is my best fren birthday date, normally i hope can celebrate with her but she never pick my call so the party is gone away...just can say happy birthday in this blog..happy birthday my fren (carrie). I think she not hopefully i will wish her like this style, but no choice. Today need make final decision, what decision?. Why i would say like this just is because last week my dear promise me this is end of time to clubbing.

I hope he not same as the old BF once agaist the promise, i really can't forgive them if this situation will happen again.But yesterday night i argua with him again, if i wrong I would like to say sorry dear. By the way, i also will control my emotion.
Happy duration is not long, we can just keep in our memory when the happy happened.Can't catch and stop it.

My dear GOD pls bless my fren happy 4 ever and hope less venture in their life...I will take my live time or my age to exchange the happy time gift for them.Love u all 4 ever!!!

Shopping centre trip

Yesterday I with my boy and Wan Ling went to Sunway Piramid, abd Mid Velly.
Situation at Sunway Piramid- When we arrived there we seem a huge piramid and people who are prepared the festival of Chinese New Year coming soon. Inside have a lot of people shopping, maybe that day is public holidya (SUNDAY).

We have gone to bowling played. This is a 1st time play bowling in Sunway Piramid, but the truth is not funny compared with Mid Velly bowling centre there. I most prefer to Mid velly or TS. last saturday I play bowling with my boy and his fren on Saturday, the result is unpredicable highest in my life.haha.....just 94 mark.Of course this game have some motivation which is we play in couple and who lose the game should buy cup of drink for who the winner.

Finally, we are won in 159+94 equal 253. I know for professional bowling player is normal result, but for thr new player this are the started to get more higher mark.Otherwise, we are challeged Wan Ling to play the bowling, sure like her attitude sure will deal with us, and the final result is she lose.haha....

After we take the break with lunch(burger King) we have talk a lot about the old memory which is...secret! Sorry...can't wrote the privacy event. DUN LOOK BACK FOR PAST TENCE, WE NEED LOOK THE FUTURE.

When we finish our lunch we gone to MID VELLY continuous our game, haha...but this time winner turn on to me. I dunno is whether my dear belong to me or something I can felt have a power to support me and push me dun ever easy to give up. Now I would like to thank to my dear (Kelvin) I love u 4 ever.

My 2010 1st time sick period

Yesterday I sleep whole of the day. I never try before sleep whole day. That day when i wake up, I felt not well and a little bit sick. So In the morning my mother sent me to clinic for check. Unfortunetely, I get sick in seriouse.
After go home i take medicine gave from doctor, sleep until this morning.

Finally I recover on next day. My dear always belong to me and keep in call but i can't feedback to him because my body no as much energy to take the phone and hear the call. sorry my dear..i know u worry about me and I cannot accompany u yeterday so i promise u i will recover immedaitely and I'll take lunch with u this afternoon.
Waiting for me dear, i coming soon.

The last sentences thank for my mother always take care of me and my beloved. They always remind me to take medicine on time, furthermore i'll promise to u all, i won' get sick and worry from ur's...love u all 4 ever...

I Dunno How To Love again..

Yesterday I went out with my BF, I know he sick at the moment but he still come here to visit me. Of course i have a little bit happy but just a little bit. SOmeone can tell me it This is Love? I never care about his recover or not just like normal out with him. I cant understand about my feeling or just what his mother told is public love for us?

I know better ask the time, because i know the duration time will tell the truth. May be we still fresh for this new love and feeling. Whatever i dun want hurt again about the love. I dun want against like last time...I really tired at the waiting moment and the love time.

I can think in positive way , but all of them know i cheat for myself only. Why i still worry about this? IS me still can't forget the sad period in love? Furthermore I should doing something for proved to myself, is this the one or need to let it go.
I can't hold the love again, I get alone better than now.

I dunno wheather still used his money or not? Because he told one sensitive sentences make me sensitive in money for both feeling.

we together not more than one month i already felt tired for this love, feel too reality of this love can't breath anymore, i was visit blog of JIM I did't have any sad feeling. Which mean i can let the older love go on. I just scare love again like before. I want to cry and tell sombody but I can't open to telling the situation right now.

However I will find the the answer to solve this problem.

Pening Trip

HAHA...everyone when hear this smiling sure know is happy trip for me and my dear.

This trip total have 4 person, which is my beloved, me, kerli and her BF. We take as long time arrived there. Around 12 noon.Tht is my first time trip with him, i felt exited and expected. what will happen later? The event made me satisfaction is can tried the delicious food I never try before. 1st food is "yam Chui Mee" before we reach the George Town we take this above food at IPOH. After this breakfast add lunch, we gone check in hotel.(HOTEL MALAYSIA)/(HOTEL LEGAL MALAYSIA) the duration of this trip just 2 day 1 night.

However, the aim of us came is enjoy what the famouns food at here. The second place we reach is "ji le shi" we followed the pulau tikus word forward there to tried the "LAKSA" wah...the laksa really HO JIA than KL. Later we gone to saw the Guan Yin and the "Ji Le Shi"

The funny event was happened which is we lost whare we go...until need to asked police. The time we lost around 2 hours. Haiz...waste time find the place we live.
Although we reach the hotel and bath, we also need find another strange place to complete our task (food again).

Finish this place we also going the Pening Hill see wheather have funny thing or not but no...we need to count time to arrived the place because we seat not bus not van is...try to guess lah!!! But this place no any exited thing we can search just same as a normal ground for us. the advantage in here have fresh oxgen and meet the monkey during smooked, not body can trust right? The ring of train are calling...we need go down.

We planned what food take on dinner but also need some time to seek out. Unfortunely, we also can't find out, George Town City always play role in God, because we want ate the food we can't find out, conversely we reach the place of the food is out of stock or all the food are sold out. Haha, but does't matter we will keep going.

Finally we find out the palce can ate many delicious food and the view also not bad for us, we can afront the sea and the wind same as touch us our face the feeling really not bad. Of cource we ate in enough. The price of this dinner ...scary for other(RM 80)

After we take this dinner we turn back to hotel for open the wine. we bought 2 wine and drink in te room. The wine can made someone can't sleep anymore and we exercise in the room. hahahaha.....finally we get sleep.ZZZZ.....

The next day we gone was Temple of Thailand. The exited at there is the machine of saw the future who put the 50coin in the machine and can saw the next coming. Sure we all tried it and get know but better don believe so much.
We catch pic in pening and view the next target station.

ToY CiTy
this toy city have publish toy related older cartoon movie and so on.
Then we have gone to QUEENSBAY MALL. We go this place for tried the toilet restourant food and the background see wheather really delicious of there food or not.
the decision what we made is the place is suitable for take picture only haha...disapointed...never mind just review only.

Around 8 p.m we back to KL...after we take dinner at there.

Feeling of this trip
1 can view the sea
2 get more information of this Town
3 relationship of me and my dear more close

24,25 Disember 2009

24 Disember 2009 midnight we take dinner together. We counter with ViVian, Sam, Alvin and his GF!! HAppy duration can not control by us, we just can wait for the time coming up. We also can wish the time can stop, but reality is non change anymore. U 1st time present to me is a "NECKLACE".

1ST TIME INTERVIEW

I still remember my first time interview is Form 5.I was take position as Promoter.
At tht time almost near the SPM examination, maybe because i'm stress, Cannot think where can express the stress, final decision is work for a while. Work separate 2 path way which is advantage and disadvantage...

ADVANTAGE: CAN EARN MONEY, SATISFACTION, AND WIDELY RELATIONSHIP.
DISADVANTAGE: SPENT MORE MONEY AT OUT SIDE, BORING, AND WASTE TIME

DURING working time I think i will become mature, as i know is difficult and imposible. May be last time i still young or another reason. Unfortunately, my worked duration just 4 day.
After work i get know the important of study.No body choose working if compare with study. Because motivation of work is money and need for absorb more skill in this world.

THE SECOND JOB FOR MY LIFE
WHEN I interview in this office no any scare felt! I predict this time also will successful, finally it I did ti. This time i take position as GENERAL CLERK. As i know the detail GC just handle a bit of task but in this company most different compare with another company.

My position just need to take obligation in delivery order and outright stock. But the time is longer they give the work become more than before. The weekness of this company is not enough of employee. So I would like to take the other obligation too.
By the way i can learn more skill in this company such as e-comerce, acount a little bit and the communicate with another country which is THAILAND and CHINA.