consideration day....

Some time i ask myself why i will live in here..for what? who?
Have people said live for life, live for learn somthing, live for waiting die...and so on!

In different people think differently opinion or idea..that why a lot of people can built the different cultural and perception in their own personality...today i learn the principle of marketing in the class, but today not learn theory of Marketing but she try give some test for us which is Market Itself. My class start discuss what is Market Itself in real mean..unfortunely nobody know...that just a simple game it is identified what kind by myself...we start the "game".

The funny thing i know is some of my classmate draw the same item or object...such as like Rebeka, she draw a turtle and the other guy also draw the similar object...haha

My one is a "lalat" and becaome a ...secret..hehe
this item i take time to think is the suitable component for me...because the meaning in what i'm drawing in reflect my whole life. The personality of myself not really sure but the first view in my mind is that once...it can reflect me as a lazy girl and always relies on my parent what i should to right now is contribut something when i growth up.

The truth is I hate study, because i want attract my parent and others i'm starting harworking study and satified by my parent...what i like is normal life...i dun want my parent earn money for me I wan try indepandent...so i believe in one day i will go foreign country work and study for my family...hope can contribut for them...

This is my backside story, about the paper....

Finally the class is over and we leave.

May 13

Today is the lonely day...

I think today i have some activity in this night bacause of someone can't go so the activity delay and cancel...have a good opportunity give me buy and book the ticket but i also not willing go it.
Who can give me advise what should i do now? The man have ability to change my life but the main decision is by my own...money and love! how to choose...if a person who are really think deeply, this question is quit difficult.May be is my own personality is complicated.

Everytime when i feel not comfortable i will headached..i'm get fever...

My first holiday (monday)

Yesterday is mother day. Many people have celebrate with mothers and present it for her..anyway i want wish here all the mother have a nice day at that mothers day.

After the happy moment i would like to share my holiday session plan...
my fren just finish the holiday but now is turn from me get rest in this two week.
The planned set from him is go genting 3 day 2 night. Today I start felt not normal such like missing the heart from here, i try to have bacjk but still fall in trouble. Nobody can open my mind. Sadly, Hopeless, Worry nothing, etc.

However i told someone but still can;t express the real feeling. I scared..and helpless, this the first day holiday i dun want keep going with this feeling..